Wednesday, January 17, 2007

It's over

The D&C went well, and was far less terrifying than it could have been. Aside from some shenanigans with the IV, I had no pain, and absolutely no awareness of what was happening. I woke from the anesthesia alert, and walked out of the hospital less than an hour later.

So physically, I'm good. Emotionally, I'm working on it. I've been so blessed to have friends and family who are unfailingly supportive, including my incredible Mother-In-Law, who's been taking care of the Cheeto yesterday. I'm trying to stay focused on all of the wonderful things the Boy and I have in our lives, instead of on this one thing we don't have.


Anonymous said...

I'm very sorry for your loss. I lost a baby almost exactly a year to the day I had my beautiful daughter. I don't think anyone can understand the pain of using a baby in utero until it happens. I was pregnant in July of 2005, the time my first pregnancy baby would have been born. When July 2006 rolled around and I had my beautiful 8mo daughter with me, I still felt the loss of that older sibling we would never know. I love my daughter and I'm so grateful she's here, but I'll always miss the one that never was. It's okay to be sad now.

Anonymous said...

The loss of a baby is the loss of a whole life envisioned. I am very sorry for your loss. I've written about my experience in this arena with "Common Colds and Miscarriages." It might be in the Feb or March archives.