Went to the fertility guy today. I'm going to start taking Clomid next month, and they'll monitor me to make sure I'm ovulating, and to see when and on which side. If, after three months of that, I'm not pregnant, we'll jump to IVF.
At this point, I'm just so glad ot have a plan, any plan. And if we end up having to do IVF, then at least we can say we tried everything else that we could have. Plus, this doctor is just so optimistic that every time I leave his office, I feel certain that I'm going to get pregnant. It may not be true, but the feeling is reassuring.
The only monkey wrench in the plan is that I cannot take Clomid if I'm breastfeeding. So I have approximately 20 days to wean M. Seeing as I've been trying to wean her since she was 11 months old (using the "don't offer, don't refuse" method, which, roughly translated, means "you're going to nursing until your kid gos to college"), this is no small order. At this point, I am seriously considering putting Tabasco sauce on my nipples (except, of course, that M has a demonstrated preference for spicy foods. Seriously. We fed her spicy tortilla soup, and after the first bite, she cried that her mouth was hot. Then she asked for more, and proceeded to slurp down a whole bowl. Meantime, I was chugging milk to cool my own mouth down). Lately, she does believe me if I tell her my breasts are empty, but she just comes back and asks again 20 minutes later.
Anyway, just in case there are lurkers out there, I'd appreciate weaning tips from any and all of you. And perhaps, just maybe, someone could tell me that it's not wrong to wean one kid just so I can try to have another? Please?