Wednesday, May 07, 2008

When Did I Become a Cathy Cartoon?

3.5 weeks of self-discipline and self-deprivation: 3.5 weeks of counting every calorie, writing down every bite, and thinking about food every minute of the day. 3.5 weeks of chicken breasts, broccoli, and carrot sticks. 3.5 weeks of before-dawn workouts. Total loss: 2 pounds.

3 days of moderate, but freer eating: 3 days of a few fries with my small, no cheese, no mayo road-trip hamburger, 3 days of real bagels (w/o toppings), of hotel-buffet breakfast. No cheetos, no chocolate, a little cake. And ok, no fruit and no exercise, either. Total gain: 5 pounds.

Aaaaaak.

Seriously, though. This is why I don't tend to stick with diets. I work hard, I follow directions, I deny myself almost all of my favorite foods, and for what? To lose a pound or two that return, with interest, the second I ease up, even a little bit, on what I eat? Even worse, I'm told it's a "lifestyle change," which means I have to do this every single day for the rest of my life or risk ending up in a worse spot than where I started. No, thank you. As between "fat and deprived" and "fat and satisfied," I choose satisfied.

That all said, I'm not quitting. I have a specific goal in mind, and I will get there even if I have to perform liposuction on myself. But I'm done with grandiose schemes of getting to a "healthy" weight. I'll do what it takes to get to my 20-pound goal before my next fresh cycle, then I'm out. It may be true that nothing tastes as good as thin feels, but if I won't ever get to feel thin, then I might as well enjoy the things I could be tasting.

4 comments:

southernsuds said...

Oh my gosh I could NOT agree with you more! Thin never felt as good as a plate of nachos tasted because I was hungry all. the. danged. time.

And being out of my meds that help control my appetite has done a number on me. I can feel the weight piling back on and see it on the scale and I don't even eat that much in the first place!

I say do what ya gotta do and don't beat yourself up about it. I'll share my dessert with ya any time!

Nicole said...

Chocolate tastes way better than thin feels. I think... I haven't been thin for years but the chocolate has been wonderful! :)

judy said...

I gained five pounds on weight watchers.
I think everyone has different dietary needs for their body's. I thought for sure that when I became a veggie I would gain weight because the lack of protein (I believed Atkins at the time)but surprisingly I have stayed a healthy weight with ease and lots of yummy food.
Find your niche.

Penny said...

Crap, you make me feel guilty for not going running. And also not dieting.