Monday, June 02, 2008

One Year

A year ago today, I found out about my ectopic and entered the world of infertility. I've dreaded this day for months, because it marks an entire year since life has been anything close to "normal."
Fortunately, this current pregnancy (yes, I'm openly admitting to being pregnant, though with the caveat that it's (a) still unofficial until my beta on Thursday and (b) really, really early so we're not getting our hopes up too high) has turned what could have been a really, really bad day into just another day. I'm still sad about the babies we lost, but at least right now I feel like there could be a happy ending to my story. Frankly, that's more than I'd dared hope for.

But still, I couldn't let this day go by unmarked. And I definitely couldn't let a silly post about sunscreen be the marker.

So, here's to my embryo with the bad sense of direction. I wish I could have found out who you'd be.

9 comments:

Mommy Meryl said...

Thanks for your comment on my blog - I totally agree with you about Charlotte!!

Your post today was moving - my thoughts are with you. I have a 5 1/2 year old girl and while I didn't have to go through the measures that you are, I did have to go to RE to get pregnant and I so remember wait every other day for the hormone counts. I wish you the best and I look forward to stopping by more often.

Katrina said...

I truly understand. I am crossing all parts for this little guy (or gal!)

The Girl Next Door said...

I am cheering you on all the way and hope this turns out to be a wonderful year for you. Biggest hugs ever.

scarredbellybutton said...

Thinking of you on the one year mark.

Bean said...

Sooo sorry for what you dealt with last year, and hoping this year turns out much much better (in the baby sense anyway). Fingers crossed for great results on Thrusday!

Mrs.X said...

It is a tough anniversary, but you made it through and it sounds like you have something wonderful to look forward to. Only best wishes for the future!

insane mama said...

I am totally praying that this works, and you are so brave to share al of this.

DC said...

Good luck with the beta! I'm keeping my fingers crossed for a great number.

Katie said...

I wanted to say that I'm so sorry about your ectopic and loss of tube. I too wish I could have met the baby who didn't make it very far. This post was very moving. here from NCLM