It's been what, like four months since I've posted here? I can't even imagine that there's anyone left reading (you know, out of the legion of fans I had before). Clearly, I'm not doing much blogging any more, so I think the time has come to wrap things up here. I figure I'll finish by tying off some loose threads:
My sister is doing much better. She's properly medicated and has been very receptive to treatment. There are still things in her life that are difficult and bad, but overall, I'm so damn proud of her. She's doing her very best to pull her life together, and so far she's doing a bang-up job. I hope and pray that I never, ever get that call again.
M, my M, is four years old now. She's smart and silly and cute and just all around great. She's old enough now that she has this whole secret life -- every day I ask her what she did in school, and she tells me she's keeping it a secret. And then, every few days or so, she'll say or do something that I had no idea she could do (draw a person, write her name, tell her lefts from her rights). She never fails to surprise, delight and exasperate me.
E is turning one next week. She's a tiny little dynamo -- short and small, and in perpetual motion. She started walking about a month ago, and I never get tired of seeing her stagger around. There are a dozen moments a day with her that fill my heart with joy, and I am glad every day that we decided that having a second child was worth the (emotional and financial) cost.
That said, E is definitely my last child (barring a miracle). As much as I love and adore her, The Boy and I both agree that, while a second child felt like a necessity for our family, a third child would be a luxury. And the resources that would go into that possible third would probably be better spent on the two we've already got. Add in the fact that I'm barely handling two, and we have a decision. One, I might add, that I'm actually 100% ok with. It feels really nice to know that our family is complete.
So that's the state of things here. Largely uneventful, just as I like it. Thank you to those people who have read this blog, especially through all of the "woe is me!" stuff. Just knowing you were out there got me through some really bad bits, and for that I am extremely grateful.